20 Nov

It's 20 of Nov again...
The date remains the same for me every year besides, the last 4 digits are increase when time goes by....

My 20 of Nov started to be different 7 years ago...
It's a day that full with happiness and sadness
For me, particularly.

7 years ago,
I was sitting for my SPM (O-level) exams
My ever last paper was held on 20-Nov...
It is Chemistry Paper 3

I remembered in the early morning
All of the candidates were still studying all the experiments we did for the past 2 years..
Hopefully all the Purpose of the Exp, Hypothesis, Observation, Steps, and Conclusion were written correctly.

It was in the afternoon..
We heard the school bell rings...
Followed by the exam invigilator's voice:
"Masa dah sampai. Sila letak pan atas meja dan berhenti menulis" (Candidates, Times Up. Please stop writing and put your pen on the table"
That's the most happy moment we all share...
Finally... SPM was finished!!!
SPM was finally done within 3 weeks.
We're all graduated from high school and...
Parties come Later...!!

For me...
I'm happy because the exams were done
But something makes me more excited than the exam was finish
Today it's my boyfriend's birthday as well... =)
I can't wait to celebrate and meet him at the corner of our floor's corridor.
He told me he needs to celebrate with his friends today... he'll call me again..
But, it doesn't matter...
I'm going to Mid-Valley to grab him presents.
I gonna buy him a special thing after months of money saving.
After i got the present, i even delivered to his house and pass to his mum.
I went home happily.....
It was the ever bliss and happiest moment i had...
The guy that i fall in love for my ever 1st time..

Night time..
He called me in the middle of night.
I remembered it was just 10 past 12.
It takes for a while for him to tell me the truth:
"He wants to break up with me"

20 of Nov
That's a day that full with happiness and sorrows..
For me, at least it is..

My ever 1st Winter

Winter
It is the 1st time i experienced how winter is like
It was 3 years ago
It was 2007 July
I would never know how winter is going to be until i left Malaysia
To continue my study in Perth, Australia

During Winter Time
Night comes a lot earlier than i though
Stars are on the sky when it's 530pm.
Luckily that i was not walking home alone after class

During Winter Time
It is cold
no matter day or night
sometimes it comes with rain
sometimes it comes with just strong wind
Although Sun is out there
But i still have my scarf surrounded on my neck
And long thick jumpers

During Winter Time
We, a bunch of us
We love to go to China Town
And have Steamboat for our dinner
Sitting at the round table with beers and hot steam soup
That's the ever best you can have in the Winter

During Winter Time
You just lazy to wake up in the early morning
you're just too depend on the heater in your room
Rolling under your thick blanket
You'll curse someone that arrange your lecture class at 8am.
Sometimes hot shower doesn't make a good different
You're still sleepy after all

This is my winter experience
That i will never forget for my life.
Although Australia is not snowing
I still can feel the winter is coming.
I miss the winter that i had before...

Crab Island 1 day trip

I was invited to Crab Island (as so called as Pulau Ketam) last Sunday by a friend who grown up there. 14 of us were gathering at Port Klang and then heading towards "crab island" by shuttle boat.

Crab island is famous of it's crab (this is for sure) and all the houses are built up on the muddy land. You can't get any cars on that place but only bicycle and motorcycle because the road was too narrow, it just won't fit in a car. However, you'll find many boats, sampan (canoe), speed boat, and ferry.

<---- We're on the ferry to the end of the village


We are lucky because the weather on Sunday was awesome. It was a great Sunny day without much sun shines and the most important is, it didn't rain at all as most of our activities has to be conducted in an outer space.

We had Pulau Ketam's most famous Nasi Lemak, Chicken rice, Shrimp cake and some Yao Cha Kuih before we proceed for "crah fishing". I won't called this activity as Crab catching because we're not "catching" the crab by net or bucket but, we make our own "fishing rod" to "fish" the crab. It was really a challenging task which requires tons of patient. At the end, i manage to "fish" two little one.

Crab "Fishing" .

The views along the island is awesome, you can still find buildings which are built on with very deep Chinese culture. Besides, the people in the island are nice as well. They're very friendly to us and even buy/make us food.

But there is one thing i do not like it for so much. Pulau Ketam is just like a trash can. Everyone can throw any rubbish on the ground, even pee and poo on the land. That's yucky, isn't it?
I have a joke with a friend (tong) who came along with me and we both agreed that: all the seafood we going to have later, they grown up by eating "sai" (poo). So, indirectly, we're consuming shit as well...
It sounds very gross, but in fact it's truth..

I'm glad that i have a chance to visit this small village and i hope in future, i got a chance to come back again.

Job Interviews

Recently i been to a few job interviews. Here are somethings i would like to share with you guys =).

Interview 1
Interviewer: Hi. Thanks for coming the interview. Can you do a brief introduction of your self?
Me: Hi. Sure. My name...... etc etc....

After some personal details verification...

Interviewer: Can i know your horoscope?
Me: Er..Excuse me, what would you like to know?

Interviewer: I mean your horoscope.Pieces, Scorpio, and etc.
Me: Oh, you mean western horoscope. May i know why you need to know my horoscope?

Interviewer: Oh, because i only work well with certain horoscopes. Besides, people from particular horoscope are more lazy compare those aren't. I just want to make sure whether you can work well with me or not.
Me: >.< lll


Interview 2
Interviewer: What is your race?
Me: Chinese

Interviewer: Are you Buddhist, Christian, or?
Me: I'm Buddhist

Interviewer: Do you pray?

Most Expensive meal i had in my life

It was the most expensive dinner i ever had in my life. At least it was for me for the past 23 years. Can you ever imagine a dinner which costs you about RM3900 was like?

I never had the thoughts in my mind for the past 23 years until last week - My nanny's grand-daughters'(they are twins) birthday. We had our "family dinner" (roughly 12 persons)at a Japanese Restaurant named Hajime in KL city center.

The foods and beverages were fabulous. Besides all the sashimis and miso-soups (normal Japanese food), we had something special for that night - Whale and Horse Sashimi. I'm ok with all the "fishes" sashimi but definitely not WHALE (it's mammal)and HORSE!! I don't even dare to put the whale and horse slides into my mouth but my nanny, who is about 70 years old this year, kept persuading me to have them.

"Jia, you have to be adventures. Try some new things, something you would never had before."

Then she put a slide of whale 'meat' in her mouth, chewing. And she said to me "believe me, it tastes like PORK!"

I was kinda helpless and told my nanny " I'm full. I would had "it" if i'm still with empty stomach."

"Come on..such a waste Jia. Perhaps next time you should come with your parents and try it."

I was smiling and replied "I'll if we have a chance to." Although i knew on the spot we would never walk in to this restaurant. It is a great and grand place which only rich people can afford. Those modest family, just like me, we never walk in to those restaurant, no even intend to find out where it is.

My master graduation

This was my 2nd time participated to my graduation, it's slightly different from my bachelor's one, but the moment of thoughts were pretty much the same.
First of all, I have to thank my parents who are supporting me always for my today's acheivement. Seondly, I would wanna thank my friends and classmates that help me a lot at my studies and study's life. I would be able to make it without any backups from you guys. Thirdly, I need to thank god which always appointed someone to be with me when I needed or in troubles. I won't be able to survive if you guys are not around. Finally, thanks to all of my friends who came to my graduation tonight. It means a lot to me.... I appreciate the friendship between us and I would never forget you guys... Muaks.....

The video which shown during the ceremony was really touched.It highlights your uni's life from the day you received your offer letter till you graduation ceremony. All the places you had been hang around at during your uni's life; the people and friends you met; and the time you struggled with your exams. Finally, all the hardworks had been valued, I'm ready to get out from school to serve my community!! I gonna miss curtin uni a lot, as well as my fellow mates and lecturers.

The ceremony was ended with a song "time to say goodbye" and fireworks. It's time to say good bye to uni... Such a hard feeling today...

wormy upsets me

I don't have much appetite for the past few days. Tummy was upset for long and finally i start to have some appetite on "fruits" today.

I made a special source for my bell fruit dip by adding sugar, soya source, black soya source and cut chili. Just before i dip my fruit with my special source, i saw there are tinny worm worming on my fruit. The sudden scene had put off my appetite and brought up my anger.

I feel so fussy and grumpy because i was suppose to enjoy my fruit but at the end, the worms had ruined my mood. It was so disgusting that the worms are worming on my fruit. My tummy upset again...

Do you Believe?

I'm a "princess" back home. I don't need to clean my house, do my laundy, cook my own meals, and even iron and fold my own shirt. I'm well served for my entire life and things start to change when i came to Australia.

I need to pick up all these when i start living by myself, without mummy and daddy (i don't have a nanny at home and still, i live like a "princess"). I did some housework when i was staying at the hostel of course but just not too often because I only do it when i feel like doing it. I don't go for laundry unless i'm out of clothes and undies. I don't even iron my own suit if there is not party ahead. So..That's me!!

But things change when i moved to my auntie place. I hang out the shirt for her after she did the wash; I cook for them when auntie is not around; I iron their clothes when i have free time (instead of watching movie, i did all these); I clean and tidy the house for the coming CNY. That is kinda weird for me because i never did this back home and i do these today just for????

I've been wondering this for long. Am i doing this to please my auntie and uncle? Or just to get their heart before i get their son? It looks like a perfect plan thought,in fact, it wasn't a plan!!! I do this because i like to see their happy faces!! I feel great when i able to feed them with food when they're starving; I feel good when they get home and found out the clothes are ironed; I feel happy because i can contribute a little to this family and make everyone happy.

I'm doing this because i feel happy. Can you believe i'm doing these? a maid job for a "princess"?

Don't ask that again...alright?

Please don't ask me "Are you ok?" again... Because the standard answer i will give is "No! Am i seems to be ok?"

I'm seriously not OK. I'm seriously sick. I feel like crying every night;feel like want to get drunk;feel like hurting myself so badly. So... After all these, do you still think i'm ok?

I went to a party today. But guess what? I didn't enjoy there.. and eventually, i went back earlier. I don't get a point by staying there because i'm bored and heart broken. But i dunno why.

I know i behave differently these few days, i don't even get an answer for that. So please don't ask me "are you alright?" When you know i'm certainly NOT!

Australian Day -- My last day in Domino

26 of Nov is Australia national day. Every Australian will remember this memorable day, perhaps not only the history parts, but also the "skyworks" (fireworks). This year, according to Perth city Mayer, WA had spent 20 millions on the fireworks for this memorable and glory day. The fireworks started at 8pm and last for half hour at Swan river side.

The fireworks were awesome. Although i seen that a lot back home, i still think its has a different with who you've watching with, the different music playing and theme, and the atmosphere and environment you've watching at. I was on my way to Mill Point when the fireworks had started. I could see them from the wind screen of the car, they've really beautiful. It came with different colors and patterns, shooting from the centre of the river and the top of some top buildings. However, the beauty was only last for a few minutes,then they gone forever.

The awkward feeling came to me again. I had that feeling when i said "good bye" to my domino colleagues. I'm forced to leave the work field because my wrist is hurt. Today is my last day of work and i just wanted to keep the precious moment forever..the moment that working with lots of friends... Shiran, Roshan, Pascal,Charita, Joey, Vera, Rishin and etc... I do hope i can stop the time and treasure the happy moment as long as i want, but i know, the good things never last for long. Just like the beauty of the fireworks.

My dear dominians: Thanks for being with me when i need;Thanks for being kind and forgiveness when i made a mistake; Thanks for making me pizza/pasta/lava cakes when i was staving/hungry; Thanks for being not just my colleague, but friends. I appreciate everything you guys had given to me, and i hope, our friendship do not "gone" forever after i left. Stay in touch, ok?

Shooting Stars

I was borne at the modernest city in Malaysia -- Kuala Lumpur. I grew up in between neon lights, shopping malls and cars. My childhood was different from people who are from small town or village, which they spent most of their leisure time by swimming and catching fishes in the river;playing football at the field; climbing on the trees for "fruits".

Those activities mentioned are not familiar for me because i didn't get a chance to walk into "natural" with my "city kid"'s background. I never seen a snake,frog,bug,leach and etc before besides in the Zoo. My whole life, i have been stick to televisions, playgrounds,computers,radios and card or board games. I don't come home with my shirt with mud and i never get a chance to be scolded by my mum of coming back home late for dinner. I don't get a chance to hang around "freely" with friends out of the house because it's city. City is a place that full with bad guys. This is the environment i been raised up.

Some people might think it's lucky to live in the modernest city of a particular region/country because you tend to enjoy the latest technology and newest infrastructures. You can always have lots of entertainment after work, not like small town, everyone gets into bed before 11pm. City is always a place with night lives and eventually KL, has become a dream place for people who lives in a small town or village to pursue, it's the future settle point for them.

When i came to Perth to study 2 years ago, for me Perth, is a small and quiet city. It's different from where the place i been brought up to. It has the beauty of nature, and that is the 1st time i feel i'm getting closer to our mother earth. I always like to watch the stars when i was at KL. Unfortunately i don't get the chance always because lights are everywhere in the city. Moreover, Malaysia is a highly humid country which you always get to see clouds in the sky. Stars gazing is almost impossible for me because the lights blinded my eyes before i see them glowing. Therefore, i'm appreciate and grateful that i came to Perth because, i get to see my favorite thing -- Stars and constellation as well.

I learned the constellations from one of my ex-housemates and now, the football field opposite my place has become my anger/sadness recovering center. When i feel bad/moody/sad/angry, i'll walk from my dom to lye on the grass... winking to my lovely stars and surprisingly, i got to see 3 shooting stars from the sky. I used to think that shooting stars is bright and white in colors that fall from the sky with a long long tail but i had changed my mind after i experienced it. It's orange red in color that flows across the sky for second/seconds. It disappears before you made your wish.

Although the beauty of the shooting star last only for seconds, i still feel grateful because at least i got to see it 'once' in my life. And, do you guys know what wish i had made?

Hope to see "you" again

And i hope, my dream and wish will really come true and last forever till the day i gone.

A Break

I told myself, i have to be strong; I told myself, i can get this through; But, is it gonna work if i keep hypnosis myself that "i'm strong and everything is gonna be fine"...

It's the final call from my chiropractor. She said she is not going to adjust my wrist again if i can't "stop" myself from work. I told her that i need to study during my school starts, i can't avoid writing or typing; During the holiday, i have to work for my pocket money and there is no room for REST. And She said:
"If you wish not to play piano or write again. Remain what you're doing!"

I was shocked during that time. I have no idea that my "clinging" will lead to such a serious consequences. And i ask：
"Can you please give me sometime to tell my manager? At least let me get a chance to say good bye to those people i like being with during my work."

She said:
"Well, it's ok for me. See me again when you settle your stuff. Stop torturing your little wrist."

She doesn't understand, it's a really tough task for me to say good bye to others. She doesn't know how hard it is for me, and obviously she doesn't feel the pain from my broken heart. But i know, for my own good, i need to "leave".

People forgotten always. When you stop showing yourself in front of them, they start forgetting you. They start forgetting your face,name,and lastly, you'll be a stranger they never meet before. The memories faded away when time flies.

I know it is sad to leave you guys... Honestly, this is not something i willing to do but i know, i have to.

"The loneliness always comes after the whoopla"

Asking for too much

Something bordering me for the past few days... I don't know how to say "goodbye" to you. I'm thinking should i just leaves without notice, or it's ok for a chance to say good bye?

What u did today, help me to made up my decisions. YJ only lives in happy world. Whenever she feels pressure and unhappiness, she left. And i know.. It's time for me to leave.

Sunset

"Do you prefer a sun-rise of sunset?" Answer it with your instinct. If your answer is "sun rise", it means you're a optimistic person; If your answer is "Sunset", it means you're a pessimistic person.

WoWoWo.. I'm not the person who designed the question, therefore please don't ask me why. It's a typical question that asked by a psychologist to identify a person's personality which in turns, explains their characteristics and behaviors that relate to their decision making.

For me, i prefer sunset than sunrise. Maybe because the most direct reason is i cannot wake up in the early morning to catch the sunrise, but i'm definitely awake before the sunset. ^^ But the main reason that i love sunset a lot is, it reminds me that "beauty" is not gonna last forever.

The sunset is beauty and romantic. I wish i can control the time, then i will be able to frozen the "time" and enjoy the beauty and romance forever. Unfortunately, it only lasts for minutes or seconds. The darkness comes after the beauty and romance.

I wish i can learn how to be more grateful, and more appreciation towards things i got/have/own. Because human tends to regret when they lost what they have and they would never learn to appreciate what they have. And i know, without being grateful with what i have, i would not be satisfied with what i have.

I sat on the rock that face towards the ocean, watching the fire ball till it disappeared behind the ocean accompanied by the sound of the waves and sea breeze. Memories started to refill into my head, and i took a deep breath, enjoying the smell carried by gentle wind from the ocean, and i told myself, "it's time to let go..."

Before i left the beach, someone called me and wish to transfer this photo for me. He said: This is the best picture he ever took for the past 2 years. The sadness from my heart has contributed the natural beauty of my character.

Ritesh Birthday

3 days ago i had organised a birthday party for my flatmates Ritz. Before the party, i did told him that i'm going to throw him a party as his parents are not here to celebrate with him. He rejected me politely at first maybe because he thinks its gonna troubles me a lot but at the end, he changed his mind mainly because of my excitement and passionate.
It was a small party as i only invited all my flatmates: Haylee, Kath, Kelvin and 2 friends from the top and bottom flat, Ivan and CheeHau to join us. All of us had a wonderful "vege" party with JD + Coke/cocktail, and everyone had agreed to get drunk during that night. Of course,no one would ever forget the "birthday cake", which is also ours main party surprise: The Strawberry Chocolate Cake from the Cheesecake shop!! I could never forget Ritz with chocolate cream on his face when we "forced" him to use his mouth to pick up the candle.
After the dinner, that's game session begins. The card games and "true or dare" were wonderful, because that's something u can get to know your "friends" better.... And, last but not least, i do sincerely hope Ritz and the others enjoyed the party! Bravo to our little Zimbabwean, it's time to grow up to a man ^^ Cheers!!

Addiction

Twilight Saga, one of my favorite novel series, had addressed the following scene:
Edward: Promise you wouldn't do anything reckless and stupid; And in turn, i promise u that i will never see you again, just like we never meet.

That is the phrase when Edward tried to break up with Bella, the girl he loves. Non-twilight fans may get confuse, Why Edward has to mention "don't do anything reckless and stupid" to be a part of the "broke up" content? The MAIN reason is because, Edward always shown up when Bella is in danger and helpless. Edward will be right beside her whenever she needs.

After the break up, Edward did keep his promise, he disappears from Bella life. He took away all their photos, CDs, notes, letter, almost everything that can be used to prove they were together once. Bella is in pain. She is depress, upset and got hurt. She miss him so much, and she just don't know what to do to see this guy again. Then, memories remind her that, Edward will always show up when she is in danger. So, she rides on the motorcycle;She jump from the cliff, because in her mind, she can meet her boy again by risking her life.

It seems ridiculous for those people who did that. But in real life, girls/boys did risk themselves to get to see the person he/she loves. But if the boy/girl always respond to the situation, they might got addicted. They will put themselves at risk once again when you refuse to pick up their call, reply sms, hang out with them etc. Reckless and stupid things they did, just to see you again. If you love your gf/bf much, please do not misuse the power of love, and put yourself at risk. If this happen again and again, it is an addiction.

An addiction to hurt yourself.

Starting Page

I have few blogs written in Chinese for the past 5 years but this is the only blog i wish to write in English. This not only can improve my English, but it also helps my friends around me who doesn't understand Mandarin to know me better.

Anyway, this entry will be the starting page of 2010, Eng blogging and my new life as well. I hope i can get rid over the 'bad'past, remember only the good stuffs, heading towards the new days which has just began.

Happy New Year to all my fellow friends and Happy Birthday for the New Blogspot.