It must be hard for her

We like to create hypothetical questions before we engage to the actual case so that we always "be prepared". 

Before I engage to a relationship, I did throw a hypothetical question to myself:
"Will I able to stay in touch with my bf, If we broke up at the end?" 

It took me few weeks to figure out... And I came out with a conclusion that: No...I can't be friend with my ex-bf...because his shown up will "reminds" me all the good old days...the sweet memories that we had.... 
Thus... To stop all the hard feeling... Ex-bf... will never walks into my life again..

And I did stay "out of touch" with all the ex-es I had....
I tried to avoid the "outing" or 'meeting" with them, if possible....
As meeting them face to face creates an awkward atmosphere between "him" and myself... 
And sometimes, you have no choice to fake your "smile" just to show your courtesy and actually, your heart is crying... 
I just can't take it... seriously....

And that's why... I feel what "she" did today... It's really cool....

It's "her" ex-bf's birthday today... and we're going to have a short celebration with her ex-bf with the ex-bf's current gf. 
I wonder why she can still remain Happy and Smile in front of everyone... Helping us to take the group photos...

It must be kinda hard for her, right? But she still smile and stay cool...
and the night was by such a graceful lady...

Vivi@n... 
Bravo...  
 
 

Just tell him You love him!!

I always give a hand to people who need my help....
But I've forgotten that, I'm not GOD...
Sometimes even God comes into the play, it still yet to be solved.

We're more than just colleague...
We're friend...
That's the reason that I put myself in your shoe when you need my hand..
I'm very sincere and willing to pull you out from what you're doing now....
But I can't, without actual information is given.

You can't just hide your problems under your bed...
Things will gone more and more complicated....
If you really love Him,
Tell him that you love him, and you wish to "upgrade" your relationship with him more than just BEST FRIEND FOREVER!!

Be strong and direct...
Get what you want from your heart...

It's not too late always!

I'm not a Perfect Person too

I don't like to pin points others in front of my superior...
Is that sounds so bad for you people?

I'm not a perfect person....
I can't guarantee that I'm able to please everyone.
There will be something that I had done wrong before too...
And if I did offended someone,
I prefer to know it from that person....
Instead of getting know from my manager/superior.

You may call me a swimmer.
As my entire life will be just focusing at Swimming...
I never think about to get "on board"....
I enjoy swimming....
And You can't force me to get "on board" on which port...

That's my stand...
which no one can ever change...
You may try.....
But you may get back with disappointment.

Friday, 13/01/2012 What a "lucky" day

I wonder why such a bad luck incident will happen on me, before I realize it's Friday the 13th.

I was kinda frustrated and upset with the comments made by the Perth Manager during the morning video conference. But due to the 'face saving' culture thing, I didn't throw my anger on the spot to her. However after the meeting, my frustration and upset doesn't go away as I feel the comments are unfair for me. Thus, I started the 'discussion' of this comments made in the meeting room. I was very emotional and got really pissed off during the presentation untill i needspilt hour out the 4 letter words "fuck off". Perhaps it was just not my lucky day, our conversation was heard by the Perth members as the mic in the VC room was not offed.

After the conversation, the Perth Manager called up my KL Manager to 'understand' what had happen to me. Then, I was counsel by the both managers after the phone called.

The Perth Manager told me not to feel upset as this is a project, and it happens a lot in project. And her comments were not personal ( I think this is bullshit as she mentioned my name, my package and even tells me " I should do this.....") .

The KL Manager is kind enough to put his comments on this case after he listened to my explanation and thank god, he is with me instead of siding the Perth Manager. But he gaves me good advise by telling me that: Sometimes people address comments in a very unpleasant way. Therefore, it's good to let the person who made such unpleasant to know what he/she has done to us by making an appointment to spill it out face to face.

Although both parties seems not to 'punish'me in this incident, I know this is not the end of the story. I'm ok after the feeling is expressed, perhaps I'll get some 'punch back' some days after. Let's see....

The lesson learnt for this incident: be more self-control and not to expressed the 4 letter words no matter how upset you're and, never talk bad about others behind, even thought its a truth.

Hong Kong Vacation Between Christmas & 2012 New Year

The 1st Reaction that I seen from friends/colleague when I told them I'm going to Hong Kong during Christmas and New Year Holidays!

Friend/Colleague: "Unbelievable" Why Hong Kong comes in a sudden?

Friend/Colleague: Are you traveling with your parents?
Me : Nope. I'm going alone..."
Friend/Colleague: "SHOCK".

Friend/Colleague: What's wrong with you, Yi?
Me : I need a break... desperately needs a break.

I just want to run away from my work desk & family for a short period as I'm under pressure and stress too much.
I 'm not "well" treated in my working environment and I need something that gives me faith & courage to carry on.

Thus, Hong Kong it's the destination.