Use what you're gifted wisely

I called you yesterday when I was in the shopping mall,
To remind you that we still have a "date".

I knew you're going to further study in UK the end of the month,
I just wish that I can meet you up and say "good bye" before you leave...
And nevertheless, a gift that I wanna pass it to you.

I still remember the day that I met you in my life:
You've a shy boy which didn't talk much.
I can see that thoughts were running across your mind, but you had chosen to remain silence.
I was a shy girl at that time,
which I wish to talk to you and know you better.
Unfortunately, I don't know how to approach you further.

Few years time, you had changed a lot.
You're now a charming talkative person.
I can see from you, you're a gifted potential sales person.
The bright shine star that going to be discovered in the "Sales" Industry.
You must have no idea the way you expressed your thoughts and approached others,
You can make someone to fall for you, unintentionally.

You're such a person who capable of:
Getting the bird on the tree to fly to you,
to peel off its fur for you,
and climb back the tree as you wished.

Not much young girl can resist themselves from you
And I believe what I wrote here
it's worth you a credit.

But be aware in mind,
Use what you're gifted wisely..
You'll be just as successful as I thought.

Sammy... Good job.

I feel I'm such a useless & careless person

Feeling kinda helpless today....
Some kind of hopeless feeling towards myself...
I wonder why
I made such silly mistakes?
Or perhaps I should just say:
"Why I'm such a careless person?"

My job requires me to be "careful" on certain areas...
And I did "pay" extra attention on those particulars that needs to be "correct" at the first place..
But somehow, errors slipped under my eyes
I have no way to defend what I have made
But to try my best
not to repeat this mistake in the near future

Yet,
Still carry lots of guilt with me...
I feel I'm just some kind of incapable person for my manager


I was great when I was with my ex company...
I was Brilliant, Excellent, and I earned my respects from the others
My ex HOD, Division & Sector Head do likes me because of my capability...
I wasn't such a "useless" person before.....

I wonder...
Why I'm such a useless person in my current work....

Hope tomorrow gets better than...
*Finger Cross*

Shut myself from People

I knew a friend recently in my new joined office. His name is Albert Dominic Sebastian.
I have no idea how can an Indian would be given such a western name until I found out that he is a Roman Catholic.

I have no much idea about this person before I met him in personal, I though he is a white guy from Europe/Oceanic but at the end, he is just a Malaysia-Indian.
I have no idea how we get to so close, perhaps it's all about god's direction.

He is such a lovely cute person, especially when he gave me some advise about relationship today:
He wants me to consider someone good, do not always reject my options, etc etc.
He was funny while he was giving his "lecture" to me like a father... you need to get married at what age, and bla bla bla bla...

I was replying in such a "careless" manner but on the other hand, I did take in his advise seriously. I wish to tell him what I had been through, but the hesitation stop me from that.

It's hard to tell why I had shut myself out from people...
It just when you've tore off into pieces... It's hard to glue it back in perfect, just like it wasn't broken before.
Wound takes time to heal, but the scar will remind what you have been through.

Japan Earthquake + Tsunami

Japan had a massive earthquake and tsunami on 11-Mar. It is the most terrible earthquake + Tsunami i ever knew in my life. Japan government had upgraded the earthquake degree from 8.9 to 9.0, it's even worst than the Tsunami happen in Indonesia 5 years ago.

The earthquake + Tsunami are still not the worst case for Japan yet, but the Radiation leakage that happen at the Nuclear Plant. Now, the radiation has even spread to Tokyo. Everyone in the world, especially the countries beside Japan, are all in the panic of radiation out spread.

Unfortunately, i'm working in Sony. You can never imagine how worst the Japan's condition had affected us. Some of the Japan plant was destroy, especially the plant at ShenDai. Our warehouse in Odaiba was partially damage as well. All the cargoes that loaded in Tokyo were unable to transport to the factory due to the lack of fuel + workers.
You can never understand how bad the situation is, unless you're working in Japan company. You feel the pain so real.

However, we all, including the Japanese, we still need hope to get live on. We hope Japan can rework on the mess very soon.
Hopefully all the mess can be rearrange/restore back to normal in a very near future.

God bless for those who had scarified themselves in this natural disaster, please give strength who manage to survive from these.

Autumn 'sHeart

Out of the 4 Seasons, my best choice is still Autumn. Although i love the cooling winter with my jumper, Autumn has mean more to me.

I love the blue feeling that Autumn gives me. I love watching the leaves dropping from the trees; I even love to lean against the window watching the rain drops from the roof top. I love the color theme of the Autumn, it's such a kind of brownish orange color which sometimes can just express how i feel to the world. That kind of emo and sorrows about life being and relationship, Autumn fits for the perfect description.

And guess what, i found someone who loves Autumn as much as i do...

Will we get to share more further in future? *I hope so... *