What i suppose to do?

You shown up at my place yesterday.You've crying and told me, you can't afford to lose him, you're heart-broken. He ran away with another girl from you both engagement party. He left you with all your honorable guests, including his parents and you've no idea how to deal with this embarrasses situation.

I'm shock. I have no idea how to stop you from crying, not even any words to comfort or make you feel better. Because i did warn you that. This is something gonna happen if you decided to engage with him in rush, especially when he is still in complicated relationship with his ex-gf. But you refused to take my advises because you think, it's better to "bind" him up before he regrets. Then, he'll slowly get rid over his ex-gf when time goes.

And i asked you another question: If he ran away from the engagement party/held back during the engagement in front of people, are you still cool with it? You said:" No regrets. You have no idea how much i love him. I willing to give up anything for him, including my life and soul."

Then i said: Well, you did aware of that he is with you might due to the fact that you've with him when he needs someone to talk or be with. He fell on you might because he thinks it's bad to leave you when he doesn't need you anymore. He is now with you does not necessary because he loves you, might because of responsibility or just a mistaken thought that he didn't realise as well?

You said you're aware of everything, and you still decide to be with him because you can't afford to lose him. You willing to bear with any consequences you'll gonna face in future if you choose to have the engagement party in a hurry. You just wanna to be his "fiancee" as soon as possible to put away his "ridiculous" thoughts - Tried to get back to his ex-gf.

You still crying... i'm still patting your back and head, hug u in tight. You said you lose the battle. You're heart-broken. The pain is driving you crazy...

You knew it's highly possible you'll be heart broken. But why you still choose to hurt yourself in this way? You knew he will ran away if his ex-gf shown up, didn't you? I'm upset when i saw you with tears. I knew the pain because i have been through it. But what i suppose to do to calm you down? Or even to support you?

Stop being Optimistic when you knew it's not gonna be

You're not the first one who said:

I'm a pessimistic person.

I don't deny on that,

Because somehow it's true.

It's just hard to be optimistic 

Because it seems like I'm trying to fool myself...

You knew yourself more than others..

You knew how things work...

You knew exactly how you feel...

So who else know you better except yourself??

Stop trying to be optimistic when you know miracle are rarely happen.

Don't try to encourage someone

Just for the sake of sympathy...

For good sake when you knew that the outcome is going to be less possible positive...

Stop all these "encouragement"

I rather you said nothing,

Rather than cheering in purpose

Anyone can be Lier / Cheater

It doesn't matter who you are,

It doesn't matter how you dress,

It doesn't matter either what is your profession,

You can still be a Lier or Cheater....

I hate it so much when:

You said you gonna call me back, and you didn't;

You said you gonna hangout with me next week, and you didn't;

You said you gonna have lunch / dinner with me, and you didn't show up;

No apology, no guilty and no offense;

It was just me, that took things seriously.

I would have take things easily,

If I don't value a single thing between you and me...

I would have just say NO.....

If I have no intend to maintain our relationship;

I would have just STOP picking up your calls,

If I have decided to let you go...

So....

Before I STOP all connections with you,

Do take our relationship seriously....

You just can't forget

One of the hot topic in the family gathering will be: Do I have a boy friend.

If my answer is "YES", the next statement will be: Bring him along for the next gathering.

If my answer is "NO", the next question will be: When you gonna get one?

But my answer is never been a "YES"....... And I would just like to remind all the people who care about my status that: things happen for a reason. I'm just not ready to have anything right now and I'm happy with my single life.

It has been quite a number of years, I never feel in love. 

After that incident, my heart has completely shut. Loving into someone, it just something has gone far from me.

I have to apologize to those who are interested on me.... I can feel it when I was with you guys. Unfortunately, I'm not ready for a relationship. It's not your fault, it's mainly about my past which I can't even get ride of it.

The wound is heal with scars and unforgettable pain.

I knew I have to move on, but sometimes you just can't forget the pain...

Birthday Pressie 2012

On the 29-Jun, I received a great present from one of my ex-colleague in office:

~ A bunch of roses~

Flower Received in Office

The roses come with 3 different colours..
It was the most lovely present i received on this remarkable day. 


I'm very touch for what you have done for me....
But Sorry....
I'm not ready for a relationship.

I knew I may missed a good guy which i been searching for my whole life...
But I'm not intent to engage in a relationship with anyone without the fundamental of mutual LOVE.

Let's just maintain as a good friend like usual... 
And thank you for the roses...