The Quiet Moment for Thoughts: I can't handle this anymore

Sunday, November 14, 2010

I can't handle this anymore

I walked alone in the winter, heading towards no where.
I was confuse, i was heart broken, I wasn't know whether i'm still able to breath after i knew that from friends...
"His gf is coming to Australia to pay her a visit".

I should know it by now, he wasn't real to me.
I'm just a toy which able to cheer him up when he was lonely...
That's why our intimacy only shows when there are stars and moon on the sky...
we've just normal friends during day time...

I shouldn't fall on him because i knew that he has a gf...
i just can't help myself falling in love when he was approaching
He took care of me when i was sick; He walked me home when i have night classes; He even accompanied me to uni in the mid night because he cares about me....
He likes to stay in my room for study, he loves to lie on my bed... He told me he loves everything in my room.

I tried to run away from him, when i felt i have a thing towards him...
But when he shown up in front of my door, telling me he cares about my feeling... i just can't find a strength to stay away from him anymore...

All the loves have come to an end when i heard his gf is visiting him...

I knew i wasn't the chosen one. He'll leave me soon...

And i should left him before he leaves me....

Just to save my pride..

Never approach me, if you're not REAL... i can't handle this once again...

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